I, the Narcissist. :D

Passed on by Ajay and Pepper.

It has been in my drafts since long. It is governed by a simple rule: Every phrase needs to be completed with three answers about you. No as simple as you sit down to fill it up. therefore I have omitted some of the phrases here.

I am

·         An epitome of confusion and indecisiveness.

·         A very fair person. Biases and prejudices don’t permeate inside and influence me.

·         A big nautanki (those who know me personally know the innocuous truth behind it). :D

I want

·         To be able to speak up when I feel that insane urge to speak.

·         To live with my parents and my sister just as I did when I went to school. :(

·        To never let any bout of pessimism seep inside me when I am thinking/doing  something worthwhile.

  I have 

·        The strength to pick up my pieces gracefully when clobbered, off course after a brief spell of disenchantment.

·        'the-world-is-under-my-feet feeling' even when the pettiest of my prayers are answered. :D

·         One of the best people around me.

I wish

·         I had taken up literature at graduation level.

·         I was a little more strong-willed.

·         People could overcome their fundamental darkness. Here people also include me.

  
I hate

·        The idea that I cannot cry, that tears just don’t come out, even if I feel utterly crestfallen.

·         Having to decide what to order in a restaurant.

·         Giving flimsy reasons as an excuse to chicken out of anything.
 
I fear

·         Loneliness.

·         Public attention. I don’t know how to take it (at all).

·         Meeting with a road accident.

I hear

·         The persistent chatter of my thoughts.

·         The unspoken of people close to me.

·         My conscience all the time.

I search

·         (Am currently) searching for a better roof above my head. :P

·         Frantically for my socks even in the mildest of winters.

·         For the truth.

I regret

·         Wasting time.

·         Being impudent to (a few) people, in a fit of emotion, when I do.

·         Taking decisions in a fit of emotion, that is, when I do.

I love

·        The rain.

·        Having arguments, more so if I win one (for the fun of it, off course).

·       The satiated feeling that comes after writing something worthwhile and close to my heart. (more when I can translate what I feel and what I think into perfect words)

I am not

·         An easy to please person.

·         Good at pleasing people.

·         (at times) As stoic as I may appear to be.

I dance

·         Only in my dance classes.

·         Only in my dance classes.

·         Only in my dance classes.

I sing

·       When I am happy and alone.

·       I used to think I am a very good singer :D; my friends and my sister had a tough time making me     believe the otherwise.

·      I used to sing a lot (in public) when I was small. After that I sang in public once 2 years back upon insistence of a very dear friend.

I never

·         Forget. (I forgive, though).

·         Let it dawn upon the other person that I am sad or bothered.

·         Confide in anyone easily and completely. Something always holds me back.

I rarely

·         Not accept when I am wrong.

·         Work according to my modus operandi.

·         Used to polish my shoes at school. :D

I cry

·       I don’t cry. No matter what may happen. I don’t remember the last time I cried.

·       I cry inside when I feel helpless and angry. (without actual  tears though)

·       When I read a book either on a holocaust or a Khaled Hosseini. Or some other potent heart rending book. (Without actual tears off course: D)

I am not always

·        Rational. I often act on impulse.

·        Ready to see reason behind an argument.

·        Considerate. I can turn as cold as ice at times.

I lose

·         My peace and focus easily.

·         Opportunities that if cashed could have been great investments.

·         My anger (at times). That doesn’t show, though.

I need

·         To anchor myself. I can’t be chronically rudderless.

·         A healing touch when I am bruised (under the guise of someone close).

·         A sense of purpose every day I get up. Even if that purpose is to sleep the whole day.:D

I should

·        Go back to dancing routine again, once my ankle gets better. It’s been around 3 and half months I haven’t danced.

·        Be more CAREFUL! I can still make peace with my carelessness, but others can’t.

·        Learn to sell myself and be more assertive.

I dream

·        Of writing a book.

·        Of travelling to various places and trying all the adventure sports.

·        Of contributing something to the advancement of human knowledge and understanding.